Whenever I talk to you I feel like saying a million words, but I never find the right words to say. The only one who can do this to me is you. You puzzle me. Just who are you?
When you go away, words come back to me, like if you have a magical power in you that takes away my ability to express myself. But still, I like you. I laugh at myself for saying the most stupid things that I have ever said. The very next moment, I am angered at myself. I realize what I should have said, all the things that you would have liked. I talk to you again, in my thoughts. It feels so good, to just know you. To be with you.
Sometimes I feel, you just hate me. You don't want to talk, it's just me. I don't lie to you... the things I say, I mean them. Never means never. You gave me my life back, and I can't forget that. Just trust me. Even if u don't, I still like you. I'm sorry I bother you.
I desire, to get you; to have you just for myself. But I can't. May be I never will. But what can I do, I am a human, I have to have hope and faith, in onething atleast. And you are that one. My day isn't a day, if I don't talk to you, or hear your voice. You are so sweet, yet so spirituous. I dream about you, day and night, I always will. And when I do, I see you smile. I love you.
Yes I know, you will never understand any of this. May be you do, may be you don't want to... or may be it's me who does'nt understand you. Keep telling me that "you don't know"... I know you do. You always will. To me you are so delicate, yet so strong. You are you. Just you. Only you.
Please don't get mad at me, because I hate to see you sad, or make you cry. All I want is for you to be happy; for you to have no hurdles. Trust in me, I will be there for you. I care for you. You live for others, but I live for you.
Just wanted to say, it will forever be you. :)
Posted in My Life on July 19, 2003 7:17 PMbeautiful! touches one's heart....
Posted by: Saadiee at August 19, 2003 12:07 PMso touchy...
but hey dont lose hope... :~)
Posted by: Mona at September 1, 2003 10:30 AMwhat a lucky girl she is. envy~~~ =)
btw: ur site's awesome! i love ur layout. =)
Posted by: tintin at November 28, 2003 10:35 PMhey haydur i m really impressed ok but i would love 2 know 4 whom u r saying this really its so sweet 4 whoever u have said she must b lucky :)
Posted by: shafaq at July 24, 2004 10:30 AMwow.....that's one beautiful piece that you've written here...and secondly, she's a really lucky gal. I guess some of us are searching for that "special someone" at one point or another...never know if we're actually find that second half...but we still try cause it's like lottary: you buy, you're hoping for a chance to happen; if you don't bother at all, you know it's never ever gonna happen. I know it's and old piece of yours already...don't know if you're still in love with that gal..but it doesn't matter...what matters is that she once brightened your life, right?! Msg me if you have time...I really like your site! :wink:
Posted by: at December 23, 2004 5:21 AM