I'm more used to it than to drinking the gallons of water that I do everyday. My dad used to tell me it everyday... even my mom did the same every now and then. I'm selfish. So now, it doesn't come as a surprise to me that once again, another very important person in my life thinks that I am selfish. Because by this time in life, I almost believe that I am just that. Bloody selfish. I have retreated from my defense, because not everyone I love can be wrong about me.

But, then, why do I always feel that I try to do my best to make others happier, caring less and less about my own damn self everyday. May be it's because my judgement skills are so poor, that I can never rightly judge what people want, and always end up doing the wrong thing. Or, still may be, it's a part of being selfish that I am so disillusioned about who I am doing something for, others or myself?

I take it though, because if this certain person says that I am selfish, than I must be. I mean, come on, I want them to always be right and feel loved and cared for. I must be. So what if even my birth number [6] says that I "have a strong urge to take care of others and to help". Now please, don't call this one selfish also!

All this self-daemonizing sure is making me thirsty. I need a water break.